That i shouted at you without trying to think about things from your perspective.
That i was looking at my phone again instead of playing with you properly.
That i got mad when you spilt your drink.
That when you wouldn’t stop crying i got really angry at you.
That i get stressed when you don’t want to nap.
That i lose my patience when you are taking too long to get your shoes on.
That you had to repeat yourself because i just wasn’t listening.
That i grabbed your arm when you wouldn’t come with me
That every so often i want to just run away and escape.
That sometimes i just find you down right annoying!
You see i don’t want you to be scared of me – i don’t want to be a mad, shoutey mummy.
I don’t want you to feel bad if you don’t get always get things right – i don’t always get things right either.
I just need to take a step back and look at your faces and realise that i am so, so lucky to have you both in my life. Everything i gave up for you i would give up a million times over.
I just want you to know that you are loved unconditionally – always. I want you to know that and never ever doubt it x
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I feel like this every day at the moment. But as you say, I just need to take a little step back and it all becomes clear again.
I don’t think we are the only ones – it definitely does help to know its actually quite normal!
You’re just a mummy doing her best… not super woman!
I have days like this too, and know exactly how you feel.
I’m not super woman either!
;) x
Thanks Jo :) x
You are the best parent for your children. Parenting is all or nothing, there certainly is no happy medium in my home!
Thank x
What a wonderfully honest post!! Safe to say every parent feels like this at some stage, I know I do and Im only 4 months in!! As all have said above we can only do our best for our children :)
Ahh thanks for reading and your lovely comment – I love writing posts like this as it really does help when all the comments say ‘me too!!’
This. Exactly this. Well said.
Thanks lovely :) x
I have days like this too. It makes me feel like a complete and utter cow. With two young ones comes exhaustion and no time to even think. It’s hard. It’s the noise that I find the hardest. I can’t cope with the continuous noise. Evening baths are the best.
I’m so with you on the noise. My head is literately pounding by the end of the day. It’s incredible how much a three year old has to say for himself!
I have days like this, we all do. There is no super parent award, we can only do our best. Parenting is by far the hardest thing I have ever done. Of course it is the most rewarding but it is hard. I have days where we sit on the sofa and i play with my phone while they watch TV for far too long. And I feel bad but sometimes we all just need a break. Or I shout at Mads when she is only being little. I straight away feel guilty. But then I have days where it all just fits and goes well- its swings and roundabouts. x
Thanks Katie – we have great days too, i just need to remember those every time we have a trying one!
It’s always loveliness and hard work and frustration and amazing all at once isn’t it? It’s no wonder we’re tired, if only just from all the emotions. Lovely photo x
You are spot on – i think that’s it, sometimes just too many emotions to deal with!
Aww I feel like this often. I hate that guilty feeling but even if we were perfect and never got annoyed there would still be something else we’d feel guilty about where the kids are concerned. A very sweet, honest post xx
Thank you Carolynne – i guess the guilt just comes with being a parent, there is no way you can be perfect all the time!
Fantastic post! I need to take a step back sometimes and remember just how lucky I am! x x